I'm so tired of this routine
Of these rules, made for everyone but applicable somehow only to me
Of this monotony that has completely engulfed my existence
Of this train that picks me up at the same station and drops me at the same station everyday
Of people who I believe are not worthy of my company
Of those who remember me only when they are in dire need
And of those who leave no chance to unnecessarily mock at me when it is them who are guilty on the inside, everytime
Of expectations of every possible size, irrespective of whether I'll be able to fulfil them
Of waiting for the moment when I will feel happy and satisfied from the core of my heart, and not just to show it off to other people by putting an empty smile on my face
Of the nervousness when I know for sure that I'll get a cold response which I don't deserve at all
Of the inability to understand why do I always try to bow in front of even those who I know will never ever respect me for who I am or even my perspective
Of all-time pessimists
Of this surprisingly slow life of mine
Of not getting enough sleep, and that too a peaceful one
- Disha
